I'll take this dayy by day by day.

Again with my relationship problems

2009-01-30T07:35:55Z

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fluffehfoxeh @ 2009-01-11T23:07:00

2009-01-12T05:11:10Z

I think I'm going to create a new journal.

The reason I don't post in this one is because it has the cobwebs of my past that I would rather not look at. So, when I create a new one I will post on here and you can add me.

Thanksgiving 07

2007-11-25T20:40:31Z

Can you say best break ever?

I lost two pounds even after the disgusting amount of food I ate
cuddled.
Spent time with family
dyed my hair -- (I didn't like it at first at all..It looked as if I stuck my head into a bottle of merlot...but it's fine now)
went to dinner with Christopher's mommy
saw a friend I didn't expect to see
stayed out far too late.
caught snowflakes on my tongue.
was a pseudo-intellectual at Barnes and Nobles.
went to see a movie I couldn't tell you even the basic plot of.
RELAXED.

Life is good.

I keep saying I'm going to start back up.

2007-07-26T19:00:19Z

This is where I start on my plan to come back to LJ. My summer hasn't been as eventful as last. This I am thankful for. Let's see. I go to Fort Worth again tomorrow. I'm excited and scared and anxious and arjflengfkn. For those of you that aren't aware, I kind of sort of yes I did start a long distance relationship. He's cute, sweet, and I think he may actually care about me. And that feels really good...for lack of a better adjective.. He lives only 10 minutes away from my aunt's house. So going to visit up there isn't unrealistic, but it is still difficult. He has his crazy smart stuff to worry about...whilst I have what? My crazy not so smart stuff...=]]. I've lost a considerable amount of weight this summer. I don't even really understand how either. I mean sure I have been working out and such..but meh. At the end of last year I was at a ominous 166 give or take a few pounds. Now I'm at a solid 151. I don't think I look any different, though people have asked. I kind of thought that 15 pounds would be a bigger difference than this. >.< Oh well. What else? I went to Warped Tour...wasn't that fun. I went into the Bayside pit and nearly died. That was the best part of it??? ahaha. This whole entry lacks indentions. Whatt elsee...hmm. Erin and I have kind of lost touch...not that we were really in touch before. But meh. I need to go pack. T minus...30 hours.

I feel that I've misplaced my identity..

2007-05-30T04:42:29Z

I miss feeling that I am free to be the wreckless teenager that I should be. Work has consumed any type of social life that I used to have. For that, I am genuinely sorry. I know I haven't been that great of a friend to any of you lately. I am just exhausted. I never update anymore. Now how am I to remember the flickers of excitement that actually dooo come into this life of mine?

I wish I were going to England.

The one good thing about work is the grand amount of money it is delivering to me. lots lots lots. I don't know what to do with it really..since I never get to do anything.

I hope everyone that is going has fun in Europe.

I'm back on board.

2007-01-30T02:52:17Z

I miss livejournal.
I miss you guys.
>.< I feel so guilty.
Like, mehs.
I'm just scared to go sit back over at the table I think.
Not that ya'll are scary.
Just..well I'm not sure.
Meh, emo. @.@

In other news, I'm now having phone sex with my first-love's best friend. Hm. Well not literally right now. But...I'm such a whore. ahhhaha. Oh well. (It was fun. @.@) ahhahaa. Nothing else has really happened..I get my braces off this summer and I have to go to a psychiatrist on febuary 14th. VALENTINE'S DAY. ldfjlaer. *bang* We'll see how that turns out. I want Adderall (sp??). holy crap. I was utterly exhausted. and then I took it and was like...ooooo. Awakkee. and really not hungry. Like all I've had today is 6 cheese-its, half a dr.pepper, and a sip of coke. @.@ And I'm not hungry. I don't know if I should be overjoyed or disturbed...I'll just be both. Mixtures are good.

I've decided to start up again.

2006-11-19T01:28:28Z

It's been a while--a long while. A hard while as well. I've been going to therapy regualary, every other week, and nothing seems to be helping. This always happens during holiday season though. 'Not to worry' I keep telling myself. But it's been harder than ever not to worry. I've learned so much over this past year, about love and heartbreak, my parents past, and who cares for me. In the days since I've last posted a real post..I've done things that I don't think I will ever forget nor forgive myself for. No one knows those things. Only I, and that is unusual for me. I have never handled anything all by myself. I am a weak person. But with the passing of the love I had for Ellis, it has made me come to some hard and true realities. Trust means more to me now. I think more before I act. I think more about the what if's now. I divert a fucking lot. I dunno >.< I'm sorry.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-08-03T22:53:00

2006-08-04T03:53:30Z

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fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-07-27T00:30:00

2006-07-27T05:30:55Z

I think I have to make a new journal..I think my parents have been reading this one.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-07-26T23:50:00

2006-07-27T04:50:47Z

Comment and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll pick a song that reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll pick a fictional character that reminds me of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. If I do this, you must post this in your journal.

blahhhhh I'm boredd

2006-07-06T20:42:42Z

1. Give me a nickname.

2. What is the one thing in my life that sticks out?

3. How long have you known me?

4. When and how did we first meet?
.
5. What was your first impression?

6. Do you still think that way of me?

7. If you could give me once piece of advice I'd remember forever, what would it be?

8. Do I talk a lot?

9. Am I out-going?

10. Am I a positive or negative thinker?

11. What reminds you of me?

12. If you could give me anything, what would it be?

13. How well do you know me?

14. When was the last time you saw me?

15. Ever wanted to tell me something but you couldnt?

16. Do you think I could kill someone?

17. Describe me in one word.

18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or stayin the same?

19. Do you feel you could talk to me about anything, anytime?

20. Are you going to put this on your myspace/blog and see what I put about you?

21. What song(if any) reminds you of me?

22. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?

23. Do you consider me a good friend?

24. What makes me, me?

25. What is my strongest/best characteristic?

26. Have you ever stayed at my house?

27. What was the craziest thing youve done with me?

28. On a scale 1 to 10 rate my personality.

29. Do you love me?

30. How much?

31. Do I love you?

32. Anything else you would like to say?

fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-06-18T12:03:00

2006-06-18T17:11:55Z

I have never had a kiss like that and obviously livejournal doesn't want me to talk about it because I wrote this post 3 times. Count them 1...2...3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. So if I hadn't already told you about my trip to Corpus, then call me and I'll tell you. I think I'm going backk down there, but the only thing is is that we are suppose to go on Thursday...but for me to see Ellis I have to get there on Wednesday because he leaves for China early Thursday morning. I'll be sad if we don't get up there aand I get to hang out with Erin and David...wooo. fun. lalala. I want to cuddle. cuddle cuddle cuddle. I feel really bad for Meg. That really sucks. really really really. lalaalalaa. okay I'm done.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-05-18T16:15:00

2006-05-18T21:20:15Z

Wow. Today sucked
like majorly.
I miss the bus
then i slam my thumb in the car door.
then i had a lot of shit that I didn't do last night to do.
then there was a notebook quiz..
then I come home to find that my step dad has been layed off.
meaning no money.
nada.
we depend on 2 incomes.
this sucks
and no therapist or doctor or..fuck..orthodontist..
because no insurance.
shit.
I don't know what we are going to do.
I guess no new clothes this year.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-04-11T23:20:00

2006-04-12T04:21:28Z

Have you ever been so depressed you threw up?...or am I just really weird..okay I don't like the word depressed..but you get what I am saying.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-02-25T21:00:00

2006-02-26T03:00:43Z

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Catherine+Claire+loves+you

rrrrr?

fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-01-11T18:48:00

2006-01-12T00:49:40Z

CATHERINE IS THE COOLEST.

WORLD'S LONGEST SURVEY!!!!

1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water? Start it theenn get in.

2.) Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottle? yes..

3.) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essence commercial? ha no.

4.) Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex? that is a no.

5.) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings? yes

6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower? yes

7.) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot? yes

8.) How old do you look? umm???15?

9.) How old do you act? ??depends I suppose.

10.) What's the last song you sang? MAKE OUT KIDS--Motion City Soundtrack

11.) Have you recently become a member of anything? falloutboyrock.com

12.) What are your plans for the weekend? go shopping I think?

13.) Do you kiss with your eyes opened or closed? closed..usually.

14.) Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull? no

15.) Do you ever intentionally vomit after eating? I have, but don't take it the wrong way. I did it because like..I ate so much..and I felt really sick.

16.) If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be? the captin. ow.

17.) Have you ever called anyone a slut? I have.

18) Have you ever been called a slut? yep.

19). Have you ever smuggled something into America? yes.

20). Does playing the guitar make a guy more attractive? um...I think that it doesn't make them more physiccallly attractive..but I think it shows that the guy is commited and takes time to learn.

21). Do you live in a city with a good sports team? SPURS BABY.

22). Have you ever finished off the popcorn? what kind of question is this?

23). How many people do you think would come to your funeral? not as many as I would hope..but you can't do anything about it..you are already dead..except possibly tell God smite them.

24). How many of them would come just to make sure you're dead?...2 I think.

25). Do you have more enemies or more friends? friends

26.) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?...I think?

27.) Can you fix your own car?I don't own a car of my very own.

28.) Have you ever turned someone down for a date? not for a date...

29.) Are you smarter than your friends? well...They say that I don't give myself enough credit..but I don't think I am.

30.) Have you ever stolen anything from your friends? no

31.) Have you ever been to jail? no

32.) Should you have? Is this asking if I have ever done anything illegal? yes.

33) Do you like the smell of beer?um yes.

34.) Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream? died..yes killed..I don't think so..

35.) Have you ever given to charity? yes.

36.) Would you kill a dog for $1000? If you would you disgust me.

37.) Do you sometimes get depressed? yeah..

38.) Do you live with your parents? my mom and stepdad.

39.) Do you have plans for your future? to many.
________________________________________________

X MARKS THE SPOT
You are
[] short, under 5'4
[] 5'4 -5'6"
[x]'7" - 6'0
[] tall 6'1 and up

NATURALLY
[] blonde
[] redhead
[] brunette
[x dirty blonde/brownish
[] dark brown
[] black

[] blue-eyed
[] brown-eyed
[]green-eyed
[] hazel-eyed
[] gold/gray-eyed
[] silver/gray- eyed
[x]blue/green-eyed
[x]blue/gray-eyed
[] they change colors
[] WFT my eye colors not up here haha there brown/green DUH!!!
[] WTF Again! brown/gold

[] glasses
[] contacts
[] BOTH.
[x]neither

[] short hair
[x] medium hair
[] long hair

Your favorite color(s) are?
[] red
[] khaki
[x] Aqua
[x] pink
[x] hot pink
[x] yellow
[] black
[x] green
[x] lime green
[x] blue
[x] white
[x] turquoise
[]silver
[] purple
[] brown
[] orange
[x] gray
[] maroon
[] gold
[x] teal
[] clear
[] BRONZE
[] don't really care
[] I don't believe in favorite colors

Some things you've done?
[x] ice skating
[x] hiking
[] kayaking
[x] rafting
[] water skiing
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[x] body/surfing and skim/wake boarding
[] snowboarding
[] skiing
[x] dancing (ballet, tap, jazz, etc)
[] skateboarding
[] cheerleading
[] lacrosse
[] street hockey
[] gymnastics
[] martial arts
[] baton twirling
[x] swimming

Your personality is sometimes...
[x] talkative
[] shy
[x] funny
[] serious
[x] laid back
[] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird
[x] ditzy
[x] sarcastic
[] slow

you cant stand listening to?
[] pop
[x] country
[] Christian
[] classical
[] techno
[] oldies
[x] opera
[] 80's
[] disco
[x] rap
[] classic rock
[] punk
[] metal
[] screamo
[] reggae
[] I like them all

The pets you have had?
[x] cat(s)
[x] dog(s)
[] lizard
[x] rat
[] ferret(S)
[] bunny(S)
[x] fish
[] duck
[] horse
[] bird
[] frog
[] hermit crab
[ ] turtle
[] hamster.
[ ] snake
[] gerbil
[] guinea pig
[] pig
[] goat
[] chinchilla
[] tarantula
[] geese
[] chicken
[] none
[] hedgehog
[] snail

Clothing Brands you like?
[x] Delia's
[x] American Eagle
[x] Hollister
[x] The Buckle
[x] Abercrombie & Fitch.
[] Express
[x] Target
[] Wal-mart
[] Wet Seal
[x] Forever 21
[] O'neil
[x] Pac Sun
[] Gap
[] Banana Republic
[] Aeropostale
[] Dickies
[] Quicksilver
[] Anchor Blue
[] Guess
[] Lucky
[] Champs
[] Salvation army/goodwill/VALUE VILLAGE!!!!
[x] old navy
[] only name brand
[x] Victorias secret
[x] whatever is at the thrift store
[] Eddie Bauer
[] Hot Topic
[] Anything
[] Alloy
[] Skin
[] Volcom

Shoe Brands?
[x] Flip-Flops
[x]Nike
[x] Adidas
[] reebok
[x] Billabong
[] Roxy
[x] Puma
[] Jack purcells
[] Uggs
[] Etnies
[x] Reefs
[] Converse
[] K Swiss
[] Adio
[] DC
[x] Steve Madden
[] Vans
[x] If i like something alot ill buy it
[x] New Balance
[] LEI
[x] Payless
[] DVS

your confessions:
[x] I'm afraid of the quiet
[x] I am really ticklish
[x] I'm afraid of the dark
[] I've collected comic books
[] I shut out others out when I'm mad
[x] I open up to others easily
[x] I read the newspaper
[] I love Disney movies
[x] I am a sucker for eyes
[] I don't kill bugs
[] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I bake well
[x] I have worn pajamas to class
[] I love Martha Stewart
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[xxx] I am self-conscious
[x] i love to laugh
[] I drink alcohol on a regular basis
[] I have smoked cigarettes
[] I can't swallow pills
[x] I bite my nails
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored
[] Gotten lost in the city
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] Made out in an elevator
[] Been skydiving
[] Been bungee jumping
[x] Bitten someone
[x] Dressed up like the opposite sex
[] Egged a house/car
[] Smashed into a car
[] Been fired
[x] Been skinny dipping

Have you ever...
[x] danced in the rain
[x] Seen a shooting star
[] proposed to anyone
[x] Gotten stitches
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[x] Ridden in a taxi....
[x] Been on a cruise ship
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been on a Plane by yourself
[x] had surgery
[x] seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater
[x] been on stage
[x] peed somewhere other than a toilet
[x] gotten a black eye
[x] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[x] watched an entire baseball game

Do you like...
[x] old movies
[x] musicals
[x] blasting music in your car
[x] foreign foods
[] anime
[x] Christmas time
[] donuts
[X] animals
[x] coffee
[x] tea

TWO'S OF EVERY KIND

Two Names You Go By Other Than Your Real Name
1. CRIM
2. um...Willy...

Two Parts of Your Heritage
1. German
2. Irish

Two Things That Scare You
1. Being alone.
2. trusting to much.

Two Of Your Everyday Essentials
1. music...
2. love.

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. pj bottoms..
2. a shirrtt

Two Things You Want In A Relationship (Other Than Real Love)
1. understanding
2. honesty.

Two Truths
1. I still think about you.
2. I love wishing people were better than they actually are.

Two Things That Appeal To You In A boyy.
1. eyes.
2. shyness...but not like a lot.

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. I don't have anyy..
2. ^^^

Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. someone that cares about me.
2. a new hair straightner

Two Places You Want To Go On Vacation
1. Santorini
2. ...a secret place.

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. To feel content with what I have done.
2. childern from a husband that I love.

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
1. boys.
2. not doing my homework.

Two Stores You Shop At
1. American Eagle.
2. Dillards

Two People I Haven't Talked To In A While
1. Alyce...
2. hmm...Ellis.

Two Favorite Animals
1. jaguars
2. polar bears

Two Reasons You're Doing This Survey
1.because I thought it wouldn't take very long.
2. I reallly don't want to do by homework.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2006-01-04T21:50:00

2006-01-05T03:53:07Z

I TOTALLY JUST BOUGHT TICKETS TO THE PANIC! SHOW. FUCK YEAH. MEG GO BUY ONE NOW. LINNEA YAY! IT IS TOTALLY A WEEK BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY TOO.WOOOOO.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2005-12-17T17:08:00

2005-12-17T23:09:30Z

Linnea//anyone else..I think you can buy the tickets for the Panic show...I think I'm going to get mine tomorrow...call me about it though.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2005-11-09T21:46:00

2005-11-10T03:47:22Z

http://hrtwrk.com/video/gooddoctor.mov

this is funny.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2005-10-24T22:58:00

2005-10-25T03:58:55Z

AHHH!!! CONCERT WAS GREAT. I TELL ALL ABOUT IT TOMORROWWW! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

FEET ARE BRUISED AS HELL.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

fluffehfoxeh @ 2005-10-23T21:07:00

2005-10-24T02:09:07Z

...Allie and Miguel broke up. :(

fluffehfoxeh @ 2005-10-23T18:13:00

2005-10-23T23:14:40Z

I have to make all my entries friends only so yeah..I you arent my friend..your not going to read the glamorous life of Catherine

fluffehfoxeh @ 2005-10-07T21:32:00

2005-10-08T02:32:36Z

I want to kill someone who is a dumb ass.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2005-09-20T18:09:00

2005-09-20T23:09:48Z

Andrew this is your icon. kay? kay.

fluffehfoxeh @ 2005-09-14T16:31:00

2005-09-14T21:37:18Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MICHELLE. I LOVE HER. RAWR.